Milestones
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sorcyressOn December 27th, 2003, I wrote the first entry in this strange little "online journaling experience" I have since undertaken. It is not anywhere nearly as awful and cringe-inducing as it could be --indeed, one of my longtime online friends (mek? Tho?) once complimented me by pointing out that I never really had a flailing period as I tried to understand how exactly livejournal worked.
(That being said, I also took something like four months and fifty entries to actually learn how to "thread comments". Oops.)
Ten years later and...I'm still here. Not only am I still here, but in the one hundred and ten months since I started, there have only been two months where I did not publish a single word1. This wasn't my first home on the internet, but it's the one that has _lasted_, the one that has _mattered_.
And over the last (many) years, I have watched it crumble, with an unbearable sadness in my heart. Things change, and I recognize that not all the people I care about are designed for the long-form storytelling --and livejournal is not designed for the quick and clever single thought. I don't fault a single one of you for going elsewhere, it is truly exciting to watch the history of social media flash past my eyes, and know someday I will be able to say I was there, and I helped shape it. The world is so cool, and the internet is such a beautiful thing, with all its different aspects and shapes.
But it still hurts a little, as posts on my friends page dwindle2, and the comment counts in my e-mail fade to almost nothing. Because livejournal is the one that makes sense to my writer's brain. I like doing longform writing for a triple handful of you. I like it a lot more than shouting into the overwhelming cacophony that is my mass of Facebook friends. I like it a lot more than the blinky-not-thinky balance of image and text and sound that comprises Tumblr. I like it a lot more than the snappy one-liners of Twitter, and more than the single minded focus of Fetlife.
And I like, and miss, having all my friends in one place. There are people who post here and there and there, and I catch up with some of it...but not all. Some people I've lost track of just softly as our lives twine out of each others, but some people I realize I've not talked to in years and I wouldn't even know where to look for them anymore. I'd love a service that collates all the friends' lists and feeds for me, one site where I can see livejournal posts and Facebook statuses and Twitter updates and Tumblr reblogs stacked on top of each other and mixed together and just one stop for my friends, not a dozen tiny universes.
I'm not leaving. I have really enjoyed posting lovely inane things this week, and want to keep doing more of that, just tiny snippets of my life for the rest of you to see. But maybe I need to put more work into crossposting entries across websites. We'll see.
I don't really think this entry went where I wanted it to. But that's okay --I have always worked things out through writing. Happy New Year, all. Happy ten years. (Happy ten more.)
~Sorcyress
MOOP!
1: March and April 2005. It was a very tiny spiteful protest in regards to my computer being moved from my bedroom to the living room as punishment for my getting shitty grades in school. AND THAT'S IT! I have checked in at least once a month (and realistically, I don't think I saw any months with fewer than four or five) for 105 straight months.
2: Here is where I started to list my hellos, and there are too many to be a reasonable list of names. But still too damned few --a dozen of you or so still posting, another dozen in the comments.
(That being said, I also took something like four months and fifty entries to actually learn how to "thread comments". Oops.)
Ten years later and...I'm still here. Not only am I still here, but in the one hundred and ten months since I started, there have only been two months where I did not publish a single word1. This wasn't my first home on the internet, but it's the one that has _lasted_, the one that has _mattered_.
And over the last (many) years, I have watched it crumble, with an unbearable sadness in my heart. Things change, and I recognize that not all the people I care about are designed for the long-form storytelling --and livejournal is not designed for the quick and clever single thought. I don't fault a single one of you for going elsewhere, it is truly exciting to watch the history of social media flash past my eyes, and know someday I will be able to say I was there, and I helped shape it. The world is so cool, and the internet is such a beautiful thing, with all its different aspects and shapes.
But it still hurts a little, as posts on my friends page dwindle2, and the comment counts in my e-mail fade to almost nothing. Because livejournal is the one that makes sense to my writer's brain. I like doing longform writing for a triple handful of you. I like it a lot more than shouting into the overwhelming cacophony that is my mass of Facebook friends. I like it a lot more than the blinky-not-thinky balance of image and text and sound that comprises Tumblr. I like it a lot more than the snappy one-liners of Twitter, and more than the single minded focus of Fetlife.
And I like, and miss, having all my friends in one place. There are people who post here and there and there, and I catch up with some of it...but not all. Some people I've lost track of just softly as our lives twine out of each others, but some people I realize I've not talked to in years and I wouldn't even know where to look for them anymore. I'd love a service that collates all the friends' lists and feeds for me, one site where I can see livejournal posts and Facebook statuses and Twitter updates and Tumblr reblogs stacked on top of each other and mixed together and just one stop for my friends, not a dozen tiny universes.
I'm not leaving. I have really enjoyed posting lovely inane things this week, and want to keep doing more of that, just tiny snippets of my life for the rest of you to see. But maybe I need to put more work into crossposting entries across websites. We'll see.
I don't really think this entry went where I wanted it to. But that's okay --I have always worked things out through writing. Happy New Year, all. Happy ten years. (Happy ten more.)
~Sorcyress
MOOP!
1: March and April 2005. It was a very tiny spiteful protest in regards to my computer being moved from my bedroom to the living room as punishment for my getting shitty grades in school. AND THAT'S IT! I have checked in at least once a month (and realistically, I don't think I saw any months with fewer than four or five) for 105 straight months.
2: Here is where I started to list my hellos, and there are too many to be a reasonable list of names. But still too damned few --a dozen of you or so still posting, another dozen in the comments.
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on 2014-01-02 06:39 am (UTC)Oh good. I've enjoyed reading those.
Here's to 2014, and on beyond.
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on 2014-01-02 01:57 pm (UTC)And in fact, it's very heartening to me to see that you, one of my mostest favoritest peoples on the internets not only continues to post here (Okay, i'm cheating, it's actually DW i'm commenting on, but you crosspost here every single time, so that's good enough for me) but say that you prefer it. This after yesterday where my sister once again gave me a dressing down for not being on Facebook because that way people could find me and i could find people and i could sell more soap and people could see my fiber stuffnthings when they otherwise couldn't because G+ is too different and weird and why can't i just be like everyone else and be on the place that they hate but use anyway 'cause that's what's there????
(Ohahahahha, sooo sorry, that turned into my own person rant, you do forgive me right? >.> <.<)
And what i was actually trying to say is that yeah, i'm one of those people who suck at the long-hand version of posting because my brain gets the Overwhelm so damn fast that if i can just post a picture and say ME! on a place like G+ or Tumblr, then that's what i do 'cause although there are more words inside my head, it's really really really hard for me to get them to come out :(
So of course i do rather wish i were more wordy here but it seems the only time i do post here (and i was thinking of writing one in the subject of the above rant but you guessed it, the overwhelm hit and then i forgot and rinse and repeat.) is to whine about how borken i am and how i wished that i didn't care and that is probably stuff that you are not interested in only seeing on your friends page. You'd probably maybe would prefer some of the happy stuff too. Soyar. Dunno.
Bottom Line: Very glad you are going to continue posting. You pretty much are the only person (save one or two) i regularly follow here any more. And loss is a thing i do not take lightly so i am very glad to not have lost you here. OSLT . o O (Ohboy now that's something i miss being able to do 'cause you sure can't on G+ ;D)(We showed them, though, we made a Page for OSLT ;D)
Ohyes & *Ferret Hgugles*
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on 2014-01-02 05:13 am (UTC)no subject
on 2014-01-02 08:58 am (UTC)EDIT: Also, I was inspired to go through my old notepads to try to find something I was working on for a post, and there is just so much stuff that I've started and never finished. There's also a lot of stuff that I started and now I have no idea what I was working on at all. Maybe I'll curate this stuff if you're interested. It didn't help that I wasn't very good at naming these files.
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on 2014-01-02 10:04 pm (UTC)(With, of course, the caveat that I almost never write anything meaningful here so I can't ever really /expect/ anyone else to.)
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on 2014-01-03 05:02 am (UTC)I still read every post you make. I should post more. if nothing else to keep you up to date on my life.
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on 2014-01-03 03:30 pm (UTC)If I may digress into this... there's One Right Way to do this, a desktop/mobile app. It would be very hard to make the interface be appropriate, though -- the interaction modalities of the different services are so damn different, as you note. (Also, it would be difficult to aid people in not collapsing identity partitions.)
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on 2014-01-03 05:38 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2014-01-05 03:23 pm (UTC)no subject
on 2014-01-08 07:18 pm (UTC)I mostly post these days when I have another kid; by that pattern, the next time I'll likely post is sometime in May.
That said, I still read LJ often, though today's the first day in about a week and a half.... one of the longest stretches of not reading it in years. Typically I refresh a couple times a day. Mostly it's a feed for comics, ThinkGeek products, and a few Jewish things. And you, and... a couple other people. It's a melancholy sort of thing, but I'm glad you're still here to make my Friends Page more than just feeds.